Hi there, it's been quite some time. Since this has been my emotional blog for a while now, you know what to expect.
It's indeed been quite some time since I felt warm tears on my cheek, involuntarily damning all my efforts to remain calm and composed.
I wish you all happiness on earth.
I have never met someone like her before in my life. Never. Such a pure soul, such life and joy in a that small physique. From time to time in my life I get involved in a relationship with someone. In my case, being the person I am, I always see flaws in people--mind you, I see the most flaws in myself--but the point is I never have met someone perfect. There are always imperfections in everyone, and most of them my brain can tolerate. I perfectly understand that nobody's perfect. Not me, not my best friends, not my exes.
Be yourself, and fly high..
But then I met her. Weird--so weird. If God made a mistake, and accidentally created a human that's perfect, that would be her. And I believe God did make a mistake. I failed to see any flaws within her. I failed to hold myself back from her. And then I fell.
But circumstances didn't allow us to be.
I just told her I'd wait for her. And I told her to be happy.
And maybe, one day, I'll meet you again in the sky..
And, hey, my cheeks feel warm.
instead of all happiness on earth, i want you to hold me tight and never let go.
if there's one single think i despise, that is being emo.
it's counter-productive, time-wasting and brings no profit in any kind. it is the kind of thing that needs not exist. but alas, it does. when it's here, there's a kind of certainty that prohibits our mind from rejecting it out. it sends tingles and jolts to the very tips of your fingers, and then you just feel like shouting, as loud as possible and as quiet as possible so only you and you alone could hear it. it makes you cry for help. you need help. you just can't stop the feeling. your heart races faster and as everything you see starts getting out of focus you find yourself gaping for air since your lungs are in pain; as your whole being is.
this is emo. my definition of emo; how i perceive it. it's real, and i'm sure don't experience it often.
see, you just read the sentence and think 'jeez, this is some exaggerated emotional shit,' but then you will read this:
it's counter-productive, time-wasting and brings no profit in any kind. it is the kind of thing that needs not exist. but alas, it does. when it's here, there's a kind of certainty that prohibits our mind from rejecting it out. it sends tingles and jolts to the very tips of your fingers, and then you just feel like shouting, as loud as possible and as quiet as possible so only you and you alone could hear it. it makes you cry in joy. you just can't stop the feeling. your heart races faster and as everything you see starts getting out of focus you find yourself gaping for air since your lungs are ecstatic; as your whole being is.
this, friend, is love.
when you can feel love, you can feel emo. it's the same humane chemical reaction, adjudged differently in our brain.
it's been 3 and a half year since i felt love. it was one of the most real feeling i ever had, and surreal at the same time, and i was in love with the feeling of being in love. oh, but the story didn't end well, and i was heartbroken, and there, i felt emo.
for so long since, i never had that kind of feeling ever again. but now i do.
gentlemen, embrace love, for when it is real, you can tell from the pain: it is real, too.
If you’re his first girlfriend you can have him dress and date how you want. It’s best not to be too forceful and take into account his wishes as you move him closer to what you want though.
2. He’ll be delighted with simple things like you cooking for him or holding his hand
These might be expected by people with lots of experience dating but a romantic novice should be moved by them all the same.
3. You can avoid being compared to his last girlfriend
As he likely never had one, he’ll not compare you to his last. For example your cooking or what you want to do for birthdays, etc. But you should avoid comparing him to your last boyfriend too – upset men tend to get jealous.
4. You can pursue an innocent romance
He might be nervous or awkward on dates. But you can also relive your “innocent” school romances. For a woman looking for “pure love,” a novice might be just the thing?
5. You needn’t be jealous of other women
With an experienced guy you never know when he’ll make a pass at a girl. But with a greenhorn he probably doesn’t know how to talk to girls properly so there’s no danger of that. On the other hand, he’s more likely to be jealous of you so watch what you do with other guys.
6. You needn’t use relationship tactics on him
You don’t have to bother playing hot and cold with him by being deliberately nice or nasty to get what you want. In fact doing this might backfire as he might overreact to such stimuli. Perhaps best to be straight with him.
7. He’ll remember your anniversaries and events
When you started dating you probably cared about these things at first. It’s like that for a guy with no experience so he’ll care about them a lot. He may not know what to expect so you can tell him what you want him to do too.
8. You don’t have to worry about him cheating on you
He’s likely to take romance seriously so the chances of him cheating are low. However, romance can open a man’s eyes so you’d better watch him closely.
The best thing about this? I see all those 8 things actually happening with a couple i know, say, really well. Heh. Truth on epic proportion!
And meh, I kinda worry about you. Was I like that when I wallowed in self-pity and not getting over her? It's sad, just sad. And I have no idea how to make you really smile. Song of The Day : Into Each Life Some Rain Must Fall - Ella Fitzgerald
Sometimes we have to jump over the wall. No more turning back and escape.
Enjoyed the Borders Cafe session with Dhea, Ariston and Maura. We should do it more often! :)
Dan yang sedang menusuk cheesecake itu tanpa rasa ampun tidak lain dan tidak bukan adalah Mbak Dhea sendiri. Kejam. Penyaluran napsu kekerasan yang sangat salah. Kasian banget ya cheesecakenya.
And I stumbled upon this on Jebay's blog, when she's talking about the song A Dance around The Memory Tree by Oren Lavie :
"I said I like this song because it sounds dark and lonely, my dear said I'm twisted."
Guess what, I think your dear is twisted, too. This is the lyrics of his newly profound song :
Hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains Within the sound of silence
In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone 'Neath the halo of a street lamp I turn my collar to the cold and damp When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light That split the night And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw Ten thousand people maybe more People talking without speaking People hearing without listening People writing songs that voices never shared No one dared Disturb the sound of silence
"Fools," said I, "you do not know Silence like a cancer grows Hear my words that I might teach you Take my arms that I might reach you" But my words like silent raindrops fell And echoed in the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed To the neon god they made And the sign flashed out its warning In the words that it was forming And the sign said "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls And tenement halls And whispered in the sound of silence
It's dark and lonely and so deep, listening to it might just make you shiver the whole night.
Ah, anyway I'm supposed to get my work done. Someone encourage me please!
Song of The Day : Tom Jones - Green Green Grass of Home